I've always found it hard to ask for help. Growing up I was told not to air my dirty laundry, so I've never really opened up about the struggles I've faced. To know there are people out there who don't know me but are willing to help has been amazing. I needed that extra boost to keep moving forward and find a better life out there for my boys.
I have recently left my partner and family home after years of suffering emotional abuse. I recognised the situation I found myself and my boys in; putting up with degrading verbal abuse and not being appreciated for the sacrifices we made. It was so hard seeing my eldest's heart break due to a parent's hurtful words or actions. However, I was terrified to leave as I thought no one would believe me and he would win custody of my son.
I'm excited for my kids to truly know me properly and not just as the person who puts on a smile and agrees to keep the peace. I'm looking forward to them having a home where they don't feel like a guest. I want them to know it is theirs as much as it is mine, where love and respect are shown equally. In the future, I will be secure in the knowledge we are living our best life and I can start helping others by training to be a social worker.