Sometimes it feels like this storm that I am living isn't going away. I know that it will pass but it's not comfortable to be in the middle of it. I've tried to stay strong for my children. I want them to grow up with a dad that they are proud of. I always think of that when I'm looking for a reason to better myself. I just need an opportunity in life right now, I know I can make them proud but I need a chance, I need a way out.
My housing issues started when there was a breakdown in relationship between me and my child's mother. I began sofa surfing between her house and my mums place, but was never earning consistently enough to rent somewhere of my own. A recent fall out with my mum has meant that I’m now sofa surfing with a friend. I lost my job and my only family. I’m doing all I can to apply for new jobs and start getting back to normality, but the job market is tough right now and I’m not having a lot of luck.
Every unsuccessful application drains a little more hope from me and breaks my confidence. Every month that I don't eat, or sleep rough and I can't provide for my kids reminds me of what its like to grow without a dad and it breaks me. I need to fight.
I found Beam for support to get into both work and a new place to live. Thanks to you and the community who has donated to this service in the past I have found hope again to get back up on my feet.
I'm a keen driver and when I looked a the options available to me, getting an HGV license really stood out. It will be such a confidence boost to up-skill in an area like this and I’m hoping it will provide me with lots more options.
Finding somewhere to live will be the next big event after finding work. I’d love to have somewhere that my kids could come to visit me and make it a base for them. I have faith that it won’t be long until these goals are a reality and I can provide for my kids and support them how it's meant to be. I’m grateful for all the support coming my way.