All I want right now is to have a clean, secure abode that I can call my own place of safety. I'd love to improve my life from there by getting a permanent job and re-establishing my self-respect which I feel like I've lost a long time ago.
I was happiest at the time of my children's births. The joy was all too short-lived however, with my partner and I getting a divorce, the eventual disconnection from my children, and a long period of clinical depression that followed. I am a man who once had a glittering career, had a family and maybe more than he needed by way of material things - although the latter was never terribly important to me.
I now have nothing and this has been my situation for many years. I've had to resort to living surreptitiously in commercial premises, leaving very early in the morning and returning during the night time. I don't want all those material things anymore. I just desire a simple life of security and self-respect. To be able to go to work, return to a home, and know that I, with your help, have raised myself from a long-term low point to what I hope is a much nicer present and future.
I have skills in IT and in Finance, and I am continually applying to jobs. I really desire a permanent position where my employer can see the contribution I can make beyond just seeing that I am nearly 64 years of age. In a few years time I hope to see myself in a permanent job, in a secure, clean and tidy home, and reunited with my son and daughter. Currently I feel too ashamed at my circumstances to begin to imagining such a wonderful scenario. I feel nervous that people will discount me because of my age, nonetheless I am very excited at this prospect.
I have met two of the most helpful people ever through Beam in my support workers, Bluinse and Ryan. After years of feeling like I'm drifting, I am now much more focused on what is possible, and not what is seemingly impossible.