Believing in yourself is the hardest thing to do. When I was 20, I decided that I wouldn’t let my dark history bring me down. I sacrificed difficult relationships with my family and changed the people I associated with. I started working on my mental health.
But then I got into a bad relationship. My ex-partner was toxic, and she bullied me throughout the 12 years we were together. I was unhappy for years and when we broke up I had nowhere to stay, so I’m sofa surfing. I’m building myself back up now. I’ve started believing in myself again. I’m starting to like my own company and I’m taking charge of my own life. I’ve stopped waiting for other people - if I want to change my life I have to do it myself.
I’m working towards moving into my own place. This will be a place where I can shut the door and leave the world outside - a place I can call home and where I can better myself. I want to start working on my health by losing weight. Once I'm settled, I want to become a Support Worker so I can help give back to people. Long term, I want to have my own business. Once I have a place I can fully call home, and with my own hard work, everything else will follow.
Last year, I said to myself: if I feel down, just think of it as a bad day. Everyone gets them. The most important thing is what I can do to make tomorrow better. The support workers I’ve met at Beam have been fantastic at supporting me to make my tomorrow better.