I want to work as a carer as I couldn't take care of my elderly Mother when she was ill. I was stuck in UK when she passed away. I felt so guilty because I was sick at the time and she passed without me being able to take care of her.
I know I'll be old one day and I want someone to look after me during my last days. I enjoy comforting older people and being a friend to them. That's why I want to be a carer. It makes me feel like I have an important role in society. I feel driven to do this. I feel like it's my calling.
I ended up in my current situation due to an attack that happened several years ago where I was sexually assaulted. The police tried to help me but it didn't work. It was deeply triggering for me and I lost my way and the goals in my life. Even though it happened years ago I still have PTSD from it. I ended up couchsurfing with friends. I always try my best to help them out in their home, but I don't want to rely on their generosity forever.
I want to build my own life and have a place of my own. Even though I'm making progress, I still struggle with depression and anxiety. Not being able to work has made me even more anxious. All I want to do is sort out my situation and get my life back on track.